feeling much better today :-)

so woke up this morning feeling much better. i did manage to make it to the center and walk for a little bit lastnight couldn't really get into tho.....

plans are today to go up early before noah's ballgame and workout.

going to sit down this weekend and work on a new menu for next week. i had been wanting a cheeseburger all week one that i cooked so lastnight that's what we had for supper instead of chicken. probably going to have another one for lunch today. the whole thing was like 10 pts used lean ground chuck lite mayo and healthy life whole wheat bun. then had a lettuce and tomato salad with it. was too lazy to cut up a cucumber to go with it.   breakfast this morning is probably going to be toast and an egg......planning on making a chicken pot pie to take to the center tomorrow for mine and jon's lunch since we both will be there all day tomorrow. hoping to get up there early enough to get in atleast a mile.  i have already scheduled a meeting with the center's track and weight room for this afternoon hoping it goes well.

guessing i better go eat breakfast and get started for today.

Why bother???????

so i get up this morning and go weigh in and NOTHING changed.....i am so frustrated and upset right now and then the hubby says well you always lose inches first that's what you've always done.... and what i really wanted to say back to him was SHUT UP you've eat the same food i have and sat on your FREAKEN LAZY BUTT all week and done NOTHING  and still lost 5lbs.  but i didn't i was so irritated tears started running down my face.  according to the drs' there is nothing wrong with my thyroid or anything else that could be keeping me from being able to lose weight.   i guess i am just destined to be this big fat cow the rest of my life??????   no i'm not giving up just yet but another week or two of this and i just might be forced to jumping overboard on this whole thing and go back to eating exactly what i want when i want and how much of whatever it is that i want.  scales you were truly SUCH A BIG let down for me today. really thinking i don't want to see you again for a long time.

another day in my world

a week ago today i joined WW online tomorrow is weigh in day.

today's menu consist of :

breakfast:
apple w/peanut butter

lunch:
salisbury steak
green beans
a very small potato w/ i can't it's not butter
WATER

Supper:
beef & spinach rollups
green beans
cooked cabbage
maybe another very small potato

as of right now the roads are ok i think so hoping to get up to the center to walk atleast a mile hoping to try and get 2 maybe work up to 3 today or tomorrow. well i'm being paged to come watch abbie's dance show so i guess i'm out of here. see you tomorrow.

God Bless and have a great day!!!!

way behind

well i'm a few days behind on my blogging but still going strong with the weight loss journey.  i have tried some really great recipes this week looking forward to trying more next week.

i've been working out pretty much everyday this week did about a 30 min workout this morning at home, then this evening i went to the center and walked 2 miles it was taking me about 30 mins to do a mile i've got that down to about 20 mins right now  hoping to be at 15 mins by next week i was almost there tonight but just couldn't pull it off. oh well i must keep going. the hubby said tonight he can already tell i'm losing some weight....weigh in day is thursday morning so we shall see.  tonight i got really hungry but used up all my points i still have my 49 weekly points and i have 17 activity points built up but really trying not to use them at all.  really wanting a hamburger so i think that will be on the menu soon of course with some low point bread. have been thinking about starting up a new blog that is just recipes and things like that and keep this one as my weight loss/life journal.  we'll see.  i'm thinking this is the time for me to do this weight loss thing i don't think i've been excited about it any other time i've tried like i am now.  well i guess i'm out of here for now....should be back on track tomorrow with the postings.

GOD BLESS!!!!!

Feeling really good

Well i ended last night with only 3 pts left. Got in a mile and did 30 leg lifts. So all in all it was a good day.

Today i've had an egg mcmuffin a banana... Lunch potato soup and mixed greens......supper lasagna and a salad with like 14 pts to use on whatever. Fixing to pop in my walking dvd because i dont want to get out in the cold. I have really been feeling lots better this week i'm hoping that all this will help me with my sleeping etc.

So last night i was sitting here trying to think of things to reward myself with and the amount of lbs i should reward myself at it was a toss up between 10 or 15 lbs so i chose 15lbs but having a hard time deciding on what to reward myself with especially for the 1st 15lbs. And i'm being realistic and giving myself 2 months to lose 15lbs. I'm sure i cN lose it quicker than 2 months but that way if something happens i know i havent failed because ive given myself ample amount of time. Still needing to work on the water intake and exercising longer than 30 mins. But you have to stRt somewhere right? I'm out for today.

Have a blessed day!!!

First official day on WW!

cont. from yesterday.... i did go to the center and had a very nice walk with a friend then grocery shopping i did pick up fast food but i was a good girl and got a grilled chicken sandwich no fries or drink. :) .....

so today i start my first official day on WW...........for breakfast i had a WW smart ones egg mcmuffin 4pts and banana 0pts......lunch.....a roast beef wrap with lettuce,tomato & onion & a banana....7 pts. supper is going to be a WW recipe for potato soup

Ingredients:

1 bag Ore Ida O'Brien Hasbrowns (16 oz., frozen)
4 cans fat free chicken broth
1 pkg. McCormick Country Gravy Mix

Spray pan with Pam. Saute potatoes 10 minutes, stirring gently.
Add broth and bring to a boil. Prepare gravy mix according to pkg. directions.
Add to potatoes and broth. Simmer 20-30 minutes.

SERVING SIZE:  1 cup soup

POINTS:  2

after all this i still have 20pts left to use before i go to bed. not sure what i will use those on but i have to use them to make this work. not sure what the workout plan is for today. thinking about trying the zumba dvds i have i so want to be able to do zumba. I WILL get there soon :)

Have a Blessed and safe day!!! 

True start of a new me!!!!

Well i did it.....i just spent $53 on myself for my health.... i joined weight watchers online. i didn't even cringe or think twice about hitting the submit button:)  i can't wait to look at everything and get started with this.

i didn't get to workout yesterday i had had plans to go walking after the hubby got home from work and my brother called wanting me to come watch the babies while they went to clarkville to the funeral home so i went then they want me and abbie to eat supper with them ( i had a chicken sandwich) so i didn't get home until around 10 i knew if i workedout when i got i home i wouldn't sleep....and we all know i don't need anything to hinder me from that i do a pretty good job of it on my own. so here are my plans for today, getting things done around the house early today so i can go to the center and workout then go grocery shopping, come home and get things prepared for my first day on WW. 

Have a Blessesd day!!!!


just had a buffalo boneless wing salad from pizza hut and could only eat 1/2 of it i am so full i feel like i've eaten the whole thing. it was pretty good to be a fast food salad. still not sure what's on the menu for supper actually not really starting my points watching until tomorrow  but with what i've just eaten i still have 22 pts left for the day. (:  debating should i have 1 last meal that i wouldn't even think about eating with WW or cont. to be a good girl.........we shall see.

when i left you yesterday i said i would be back to see how much i was able to do of the 4 mile walk.....well it started out good i actually put the dvd in turned on the player and started the warm up then my darling daughter got upset with me for who knows what reason so i couldn't hear and she started rolling things in front of me.....so i turned it off and instead of just completely giving up i put on my sweatshirt told the hubby i would return in a little bit and walked out the door with her crying because she wanted to go walking with me......so i ended up doing a mile walk in the misty cold rain and actually enjoyed it :)

i really wanted to walk more but i had to use the bathroom so i figured i better head back to the house so my wet clothes would be from the  weather not me. lol.  i then came home and sat down and started looking thru recipes etc to plan my grocery shopping list come wed.  i will share with you once i get it all complete what's on the menu for the day. 

i really am so excited about all of this i can't wait for tomorrow to get here so i can get signed up for WW(weight watchers) online.  i have been trying to eat good and by that for those that don't know me my problem is not only eating unhealthy foods its more from not eating enough food.......i can go all day and not eat until supper never have been a breakfast eater so that one's always hard for me. so one of my goals is to start eating more and better foods for me.  

today's meal plan............ a bowl of special K chocolate cereal, a alfredo chicken lean gourmet dinner......and the same frozen  dinner for supper....the family is having cheeseburger hamburger helper YUCK!!! and WATER,WATER, WATER oh did i mention WATER!!!!

HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!!

a new day and a new outlook on things!!!!!

i have decided to do some things to keep me motivated and going on this wl thing.... i have been reading several different blogs and have taken a few of their ideas on wl to possibly help me out....gonna do a before...during...and after photo session.  after every 10-15lbs i lose i will reward myself with certain things (to be posted soon).  i really enjoy watching the biggest loser a big motivational show....so i have decided i'm going to try and do my own version of biggest loser as far as the workouts go... instead of their 8 hr jobs they have turned their 8 hr day into working out and learning more about health and fitness( no i'm not going to work out for 8 hrs a day just can't) but i do plan on juming in gonna try and walk 4 miles today with my walk at home dvd hoping to get my knee strengthend so i can do my zumba dvds. :)   on wed. i am going to be joining weight watchers online.

not only all of these things but i also have a GREAT support team going THANKS GUYS (Amanda, Gina,Kelli & Christy) love you !! and the hubby says he will do this with me :)    i'm praying i will be able to get this exercise thing going without putting myself in more pain than what i can bare....i know after a few weeks of exercising my knee will not bother me as bad....when my knee acts up it causes me to get so stiff from the waist down and can barely move without being in pain. 

i really want to first of all lose this weight for myself  to be healthy so i can be  here for my family and i don't want my kids to always know me as a fat mommie, i want to give them a mama to be proud of.  i want to be able to go into the store and be able to find something cute to wear and not come out of the store with tears in my eyes and all depressed because everything looks crappy on me. i know that it's not all going to come off over night  it's going to take time.  i know that it's not going to come off by itself i am going to have to work at it and it will take lots of effort on my part to get rid of it. i have to stay focused and i know that my support team and family will be behind me thru this new journey i'm on.  will be back tomorrow to let you know how today's walking went and how many miles i actually did:) have a great and blessed day!

my daughter's 7th birthday cake i made for her :)

a little quilt i made for abbie's baby doll

the new quilt i've been working on almost finished with it.

:)

Well today i have been semi productive.....i've got most of a quilt top completed just started sewing on it lastnight. can't wait to see the finished product....this one almost down and about 3 or 4 more to go.


been thinking all day about setting some goals for myself the main one is getting atleast a portion of this weight off.......i really would like to lose about 20-30 lbs by the summer. that gives me about 3 1/2 to 4 months.  i have a total of about 100 but i figured i need to do small goals first and once i accomplish that then set another one.

will cont. later.

ideas rolling around in my head..........

well it's been a few days since i've done any blogging.....really been thinking alot about doing something i've wanted to do for a while just not really sure how to go about doing it........ i really enjoy baking and always have people asking me about recipes and ideas on cooking etc....so i had the idea of putting together a little cookbook and selling it.  what i would really like to do is sell my baked goods but don't think i'm able to do that without a business license or a separate kitchen from the one i use for my personal use.

i want to find a way to help make some extra money and would really like doing it by doing things i enjoy doing. so that's really what i want to try and work on this year.  it's just frustrating everytime i think about or try to actually do something it never works out....guess that's why i'm kinda scared to try anything else.   i just don't have the money to spend and things not work out. 

guessing i just have to take a leap of faith and step out and try one more time.....

a day in the life of little sleep!!!!

is wondering where the Sleep Fairy is ? could she be caught in the cobwebs the Cleaning Fairy left behind ? The annoying Insomnia Fairy needs to go away !  (my status on facebook @ 5:30 this morning).

well i fell asleep last night around 12ish woke up at 2:30 fell back asleep around 6 then the hubby woke me up around 6:30 fell back asleep about 7 for a little while..............i truly do not like days like this it makes the day go by sooooo slow.  so trying to stay busy in hopes that i will sleep some tonight..i have to be at the center @ 8 in the morning but my plans are to be there by 7:30 to get my walking in for the day. below you will find my letter to the sleep fairy lol!!!

Dear Sleep Fairy....

   I'm not sure where you are when your suppose to be at my house.....you are failing terribly at your job when it comes to getting to your houses on time....i will give you another chance but if you can't get it together i will be forced to find someone else to take your place.  and no insomnia fairy it WILL NOT be you. 

Thanks


as for the rest of my blog for today.... even though i am going on little sleep i have been somewhat productive this morning.  working on laundry and cleaning the house.  plans are to go walk this afternoon and finish my grocery shopping. i have walked everyday this week but one. good start to the new year :)  now just to get the eating thing down. my problem is not eating enough and not always eating the right things.

God Bless and Have a Great Day!!!!!

new things in the works :)

so i was told a while back i should start this blogging biz this is all new to me so gonna take a bit to the hang of it....... my plans for this new year are to really really try and get this weight off and to get some things going that i have been wanting to do. 

my plans are to find a way to help out financially by doing some of my crafting and baking abilities.

i have always enjoyed baking and doing certain crafts if i had to choose one it would be hard but i might have to choose the baking if there were only a way to make money at it.

also my plans are to get back to the person i use to be i have been in a big funk for quite some time now......i use to be a happy go lucky person and over the past couple of years  i have been so unhappy with myself that it has affected everything and anything around me.........so here's to my new self you can and will become who you want to be as long as you first hold on to what you believe in and get back to the spiritual person you once were:)